Monday, April 12, 2010

My ideal life

Coach Roma's Question #47 -- because sometimes I need a writing prompt.

What, if anything, is stopping you from creating your ideal life?

The first thing standing between me and my ideal life is some confusion about exactly what my ideal life would look like.

Part of me is really excited about going back to school and pursuing a career in some branch of biological sciences, or even becoming a veterinarian, if I can manage to get into vet school. I have no idea at this point how I'd pay for any of that, though, and it would be a lot of work and I'd have to put some things off for a few years while putting all my efforts on doing my very best at school. This is one of those things I've always been interested in, but I had to overcome a lot of the programming of my youth, as well as my own insecurities, before I could really entertain any notion of doing it.

The other part of me just wants be content with where I am at and concentrate on my family life and my spiritual life. This part of me might have some activist tendencies as well. I can see myself getting involved in some organizations and possibly writing a book down this path. I am just not sure if this path is what I really want to do, or if just looks attractive because it would be easier. I don't want to let myself cop out and take the easy path if that's all it is, because I will be disappointed later. (Been there, done that.)

The main things keeping me from going down either of those paths is fear and doubt. Most of the obstacles I will face are the same-- figuring out how to earn enough money to keep us afloat while still leaving me time to pursue these goals, figuring out how to manage my time so that I don't run myself into the ground, and figuring out how to keep some balance in my life. But before I get to those obstacles, I have to get out of the gate.